Disclaimer
Life is like a maze and love is like a riddle
I don't know where i will end up one day
But this is platform for you to stay connected with me
And for me to talk about my life
It may not be interesting to you
But it's a way for me to keep some best memories in my life =D
Starting a new chapter of life.
Thursday, April 7, 2011 @ 10:50 PM
hey peeps, I am going to "move blog"
hahaha...
My new address is~ www.freedom-sying.tumblr.com
more or less the same but just that blogspot becomes tumblr...
hahahaha...
Visit that weblink to find out more abt my new chapter of my life! hehe
Byesssss
Lost interest in blogging?? No~~~~
Wednesday, March 23, 2011 @ 9:59 AM
I realised I didnt blog so much as before.
Maybe working is much more busy than studying? LOL?
or there isnt much updates of my life i want to give....
I need to grow up (even though much of me doesnt want)
I need to be mature and take responsibilities (even though I also don't want)
I guess I have to think of others than just to think of myself only.
and guess life isnt that "smooth" for me.
but comparing doesnt change the fact much.
I shall live life in fun and excitement! hahaha
Stay happy people!
Life cannot be stopped at the age of 3,
But life can be happy if you are satisfied and with the correct mindset.
My Values in Life:
知足常乐....enjoy life!
6 months, 23 weeks, 115 days and don't know how many countless hours and minutes~
Sunday, February 20, 2011 @ 8:43 PM
This sunday night feels different from the past 23 sunday nights.
Not that I am missing that kind of feeling...
But I am missing the people there!~
On the blink of an eye, time flies...
To recall how we get so close to each other...i cant realli rmb...
the only unforgettable first impressions are the interns and farida's hehe...
Although, we are not working together, but the times when we chatted on random things...
crap and laughter that we had together is good enough.
Daing's funny actions and "suaning" of jt...
Abdullah's and Daing's "moral education"
and yeah true..i doubt any parents will talk to their children this way...
I wont forget Daing's repeated jokes..hehe
The 6 months is memorable...
Although tiring and repeatitive....but just unforgettable...
not only them but also times with jt.
made new friends and beautiful memories...
May the memories will be forever in our mind...
We may be just another batch of interns attached to BCA..
but to me, you all are the first best colleagues I have =D
THANK YOU!
Love is such a complication.
Tuesday, February 15, 2011 @ 12:06 AM
I thought I have long gotten over it.
I thought I shouldnt have such feelings for you already.
But why do I still a tinge of jealousy?
a tinge or urge to talk to you?
It is not as strong as before.
but.....It is still there...
Does that mean I "haven recovered" ?
But one part of me really wish you the best.
and for us to stay as friends.
ultimately, if you have someone else, larger part of me feels happy for you...
but that one small portion felt jealous, felt emo.
I not sure if I should be feeling this way....
or even if I have recovered fully...
or it is just a relationship that is hard to forget coz it is first love.
Ever, i read a sentence that has a meaning like Gemini falls in love with her head instead of her heart.
To me, it sounded indeed true.
When i recalled, a major reason that i had not made the move to get you back is because of all the reasonings.
The reasons that I found that why we wont last.
And stupid reason of protecting you and protecting myself from getting hurt.
Okay...maybe I have been hurting you all along. I am sorry.
I just hope the memories of me in you is the sweetest moments we had and the things i had done for you.
Haiz..love is just such a complication.
At least, I know. and maybe one day i will give up this friendship so that i wont hurt you.
woah? i didnt realised i haven blog for sooooooooooooooo long.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011 @ 11:38 PM
To think that i totally forget about blogging just shows how much my time is occupied by working, preparation for CNY, report and other random stuff.
and.......I AM BLOGGING ON CNY EVE!!! hehe
Actually i came to blog about some personal thoughts, but then i realised it is CNY eve and i haven blog so long~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ i don wan to tok abt that liaox. =X maybe next time....
(Also, i not sure if it is appropriate to show all those inner thoughts "online")
So anyway~ HAPPY CHINESE RABBIT NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!!!!!!!!!!!! =D
2010 will soon be a history, Let's welcome 2011!! hehe
Thursday, December 16, 2010 @ 9:04 PM
It's 2 weeks before 2010 ends, and 2011 to be born~
Everyone's doing a summary of what they did this year.
I will be doing that too.
It is good to summarise what you have done over one year.
Because you wont realised you actually did alot of things within a year!
Let's see Soookz 2010's path and events.
January:
hmmm....
12 months ago....Jan would be still a month whereby i am still studying...
Perhaps choinging for projects and and preparing for exams.
Feburary:
I guess it is exam period? and with the Chinese New Year period.
Nothing much too.
March:
An exciting month of 2010 for me.
Because.....I GOT MY CAR LICENSE!!!
PLUS! FIRST OVERSEAS TRIP WITHOUT FAMILY BUT FRIENDS.
2 weeks in laos, it jus an unforgettable experience with friends and friends from laos.
It somehow changed the way of my life. and how i see things.
April:
School starts again? and the routine continues....
But with extreme "madness" for that semester by taking 9 modules all at once. =X
May:
Studying and more Studying...
Projects and more Projects~
Apart from that~ I went to "chase" Show Luo...and kinda like a first time thing
AND i watched his concert for the first time! hehe
A planned birthday surprise for MeiYin and Jing Ting! =D
June:
Birthday Month!!!
Stupid common test clashes with my birthday...
BUT I loved the special surprises from friends although they are belated...LOL!
July:
School, School and More School LOL!
Welcome melicia back from Manchester ( i forgot is June or July ) haha XD
August:
Exams Period + YOG Break~ and endless fun to have before the start of attachment =/
September:
BCA!!!! and working life starts~
meet nice collegues and got to know Daing, Abullah and Farida they all.
They are nice people...not forgetting dustparticles Annabelle and Yee Wei
October:
Working and more working~
But FUN! coz we get to see new buildings and stuff =D
and do report...sianed...
November:
Another exciting month of the year~
NAPFA is this month...Failed terribly though...never realli trained.
Submission of report and fun surprising someone..haha!
Did lots of stuff in November too!
Spring Cleaning!!! because we did Painting for the whole house!~
realli a tough job...with all the dust and messy rooms that you have to endure...>< And Finally December:
Malaysia trip!!! =D
Two more interns came!
and more to come like christmas...and meeting up with friends!
=D
One Month Later~
Wednesday, December 1, 2010 @ 9:32 PM
Woots~ I didnt realised i havent been blogging for a MONTH!
That's kinda long.....
anyway, haven been blogging because of work, busy weekends....and just pure laziness or even nothing interesting to talk about.
IT'S DECEMBER!!! the season of love month! hehe.
Christmas is coming, Santas is coming!, Presents are coming!!!~ hehe
but presents wont be coming this year...=/
saded.
One point is: it is kinda "waste of money" for presents to be bought
Other point is: They are getting sick of thinking what presents to buy
This coming christmas is like the second christmas i am "alone". Time flies eh. Everything just seems like it happened "not long ago". But in fact, years have passed.
And i realised one thing: Working shortens your memory terribly. =(
"Don't hurt the ones you loved."
I don't know why, but this sentence just makes me think alot.
Maybe is reflecting on the decision i have made.
I don't really regret what i chose, because i bet most of the relation between people are fated.
Is just that, did i realli chose to make that decision because i totally had no feelings for you already?
Or i chose to make that decision so that to prevent you and myself be hurt any further?
And now, as much as i want to keep a distance from you, i just want to be close friends with you too.
my feelings for you seemed to have changed over this period of time.
I seemed to be treating you like my brother. Or i always have been. =X
It is different from what i felt then.
And when i am back to your area,everything just felt so familiar.
And it seems like i haven been there for SO so SO long....
Memories just flows naturally into my mind before i know it.
and there was an urge to contact and find you there.
but i managed to pull myself back to reality.
I think those are hidden memories in my heart, and it opens up once it had been triggered.
But anyway, i guessed i have more or less moved on.
I hoped you moved on to. at least to find someone else who suits you better.
and there will be your happiness.
=D
Gastric attacks!
Saturday, October 30, 2010 @ 10:59 PM
Perhaps attachment has taken up most of my time.
and weekends are kinda occupied too.
having been in quite a good health since the previous week.
super large ulcer that hurts me even when i speak!
that is to be thanks to the food that i have been eating =X
and gastric attacks on wed...
it is kinda terrible and seems to be getting worse?
suspect is the coffee that causes it.
i shall stop drinking coffee. hope it will get better.
november and december is gonna be a busy too =D
and i am looking forward to them! hehe.
Ever since then, it has been a year plus.
I don't hate you. but just that i have totally understand the reasons behind all those things that happened.
I don't want us to be back there again.
To remain the relations, i just choose a different way to love.
love you like how i love my friends.
And that is the best way i found to recover.
"A pessimist can only see the dark sides of the clouds; and mopes;
A philosopher sees both sides and shrugs;
An optimist doesn't see the clouds - he's walking on them"
"Clouds come floating into my life,
no longer to carry rain or usher storm,
but add colour to my sunset sky"
"I shall think of you in the floating clouds;
so in the sunset think of me."
A philosopher sees both sides and shrugs;
An optimist doesn't see the clouds - he's walking on them"
"Clouds come floating into my life,
no longer to carry rain or usher storm,
but add colour to my sunset sky"
"I shall think of you in the floating clouds;
so in the sunset think of me."
Pending down thoughts. Think deeper.
Tuesday, October 12, 2010 @ 11:09 PM
Can love last two person forever?
Recently i watch a hong kong drama, there is a couple inside who obviously is just hanging onto the relationship just because of love.
But in fact, they are people of two different world.
The girl, kind and helpful girl, is always all around helping people and has no time for anything else.
The guy, stubborn, serious, strong sense of responsiblities.
in this drama, the guy keeps wanting to have a proper date but yet, the girl keeps going around to help people, and the guy also just give in and follow.
the girl wants to play piano as her passion and hobby, the guy just thinks that playing piano is not being serious and plans everything out nicely for the girl.
yeah...loving one person is all about giving in, understanding.
but what if, both persons are really from two total different world?
do you think giving in and understanding can solve the problem?
what if, one gives in continuously too much and the other doesn't sees it?
If both parties feel so stressed about the relationship, isn't breaking up better? (but they still loved each other)
Perhaps, that's why holding on to a relationship need to pass through this obstacles bahx.
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Demanding people.
Humans have the rights to choose eh.
But what if someone wants to plan your future for you?
giving you no options to choose, no space to "breathe".
yeah maybe if IT IS life left with you no choice to choose, then that's too bad.
but shouldn't everyone has the right to choose whatever they want?
whichever path they want to take?
and most of the time, parents don't get this idea.
all they want is the child to follow whatever aim/goal they have for the child.
but being filial, the child may just follow.
isn't it ironic? don't the child has the freedom to choose what they want?
Must they realli follow the path laid for them?
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Sometimes life just make people "live" the hard way eh.
Just now, a "painter" came to discuss about the "big project" of painting our whole house.
if he didn't openly talk about it,
we can't tell he is actually a "recovered" cancer patient.
he described how the times are bad for him back then...
how the treatment is damn terrible to go through and how he survive through to become whoever he is now.
but he looks healthy, don't smoke...
and as what he described, he didn't have any syptoms before that...
and once he knew the "news", it is already the final stage.
inspiring story how he survive through...
and it also tells me life is unpredictable.....how life can be difficult for anyone...
and how there are people out there surving through all these pains.
i feel blessed.
Office life
Friday, October 1, 2010 @ 8:50 PM
I don't know is it me or wat...
or everywhere the office is the same...
it just feels so different and tense.
the seem so friendly director, doesn't seem to be that "simple" (although still very friendly).
there just seems to be a very tense relationship between everyone.
Last two days, the department had lunch together.
and it felt so quiet, tense, lack of the happy and lively feeling.
Perhaps because of the friction during working
or the relations between people
and i bet that kind of tension can caused huge amount of stress.
It can be so funny and lively and joking when we are out on site with the inspectors.
but once back into the office,
all the jokes, all the laughter like die down because of the slient in the office.
the slience can be a killer.
that's the life of working bahx.
Working Vs Studying
Saturday, September 25, 2010 @ 11:45 PM
As a personal view,
i seriously feel working is much more better than studying.
but to the adults and whoever started working early out there, studying is the best times they felt.
yeah. probably i may regret the views i have about working now like 30 years later
and i understand why they think working is "bad" than studying.
In my opinion, after 2weeks of attachment (perhaps, mine working environment and job scope is kinda lesser than normal?)
actually i feel studying take up our time much more than working.
Studying:
wake up so early in the morning just to go to school.
listen to class, joke with friends, stay back for CCA and other random stuff
come back home, need to continue on homework
exam period have to study. (almost the whole day, including weekends)
Best part: long holidays during the year twice.
Working:
depending on ur workplace, see if u wake up super early.
go to office, meet collegues, greet them, work.
lunch time have lunch, occassionally can make some coffee/tea/milo to drink.
6pm of the day u go home.
weekends, at night do whatever you feel like doing.
however, no holiday throughout except if you take leave and public holidays.
No work = no income = cannot survive.
Perhaps there are people out there will so much tonnes of work to do.
and may think differently from me.
and yeah. when u start to work, weekends seems to be the only time you are looking forward to.
haiz. but we cant deny without studying u cannot work.
and realli do i want to come out work so early?
Thoughts about working life
Thursday, September 16, 2010 @ 10:59 PM
Cute picture of Gain and Jokwon from WMG
The first episode where they meet =)
Today, i realised the pressure and why the working world is so complicated.
overview of what happened today:
let's not put names, we call them A, O and students.
Apple is the SO of previous batch of interns.
For some reason, Orange becomes the SO for our batch. and it is her first time taking interns.
During the briefings we had with Orange, she said she trusted us. and can be able to tell whether we are in the office anot.
She is not a person who is sticky about being punctual.
So, she does not require us to sign in and out like the previous batches.
today, Apple today instructed us to sign in and out in her form.
But it is damn weird, and we are not under her.
So we went to inform Orange about this thing.
and there comes the complication and working life.
According to my assumption, Apple is of a very High rank.
Perhaps sometimes is jus how humans behave and thinks.
Obviously, some one from another department orders you to do work, it just feels not right because you are not under her.
She even instructed us to do it and insisted on it.
but haiz...I realli hope not to drag Orange into some trouble. =X
she is a nice person.
A step into the "working" world.
Monday, September 13, 2010 @ 9:56 PM
Just now on the train, i had a random thought of making my blog into a "intern days" blog.
But i abot the idea. Coz it may just bore you all out totally. =X
woohooo...first day of intern passed.
I don't know why am i so happy when i have like 132 days more to pass.
maybe is because I kinda like my first day.
not going into the details of the first day.
met the collegues who are working in BCA.
An interesting conversation (i found) with a random collegue working in the building
It just happened during lunch time.
couldn't find a seat at maxwell.
so we da bao back into the pantry to eat.
when we enter the pantry, 2 people are already in it.
Politely they invited us to sit together. (1 quite old lady about 50+, and a guy of an age of 30+)
the lady keep talking.
and one of the topic she started was: "singapore is a boring place rite"
she shared ideas like:
"actually, when time pass, and it becomes a "routine", anything in the world can gets boring. If not why those euporeans find singapore interesting and want to come to singapore? and why singaporeans so like to go to their country?"
Places that have mountains, doesnt mean the ppl there like to climb mountains.
which i thought, what she said is quite true.
and the guy shared his thoughts too.
"acutally, we are very fortunate in singapore. once, i went to philippines and i drive. I have to be stuck in a jam for 2 hrs and i was there complaining. But the people surrounding are so calm and waited slowly. they said "it is like that every morning". see our singaporeans. if this happens in singapore, "pohh pohhh" honking all the way."
that's the way of life bahx.
Perhaps, when there are too many luxury provisions and things are taken care of.
Basic neccessities in life seems to become a "redundant thing" in life.
and when people are too satisfied with the fine environment.
once they are gone, people starts to complain.
even the smallest thing that can aso cause this thing.
Intern Intern Intern!!!
Sunday, September 12, 2010 @ 3:51 PM
everything seems to pass so fast!
Is it realli happy times will pass like super fast?
so does that mean we choose to be happy and time will pass fast?
not long ago, i just ended my exams.
not long ago, we were playing "truth or dare" at jing ting's hse, very high and very fun.
not long ago, i was at SP club playing bowling and learning how to play pool
not long ago, we were sitting down under a tree at east coast park playing "truth or
and we were cycling down east coast park to bedok jetty~
AND NOW!! less than 12 hrs, internship is starting.
3 days just passed like nothing.
let's see if i have the time to blog~ xD
Running away~
Thursday, September 9, 2010 @ 11:20 PM
There are many choices that we can choose to react to a situation.
But in many cases, we work with our instinct. (or reflex actions).
Keeping quiet.
Quarreling/shooting back.
Turn and walk away.
Which one will you choose?
With different choices, there will be a different outcome.
Now, I choose not to ask, choose not to bring up the topic.
Does that consitutes the element of "running away"?
If I were to ask and do it, will it lead to different inference?
Or I just choose to sleep like the picture above!
But it cannot work throughout the life.
You will wake up one day.
and everything will be back to square one!
Remain calm and cool~
That's the way of life! =D
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